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Is a tear everything it should be when no one knows it is coming down your cheek? Another thing I ask is what hurts more many tears all at once or one tear which fills in your eye and then dies on the pillow? I figured this out when one night I cried a million tears for you, and the only thing it did was soak the sheets which I laid on. The next day you told me that you no longer love me, but I was so hurt that one one tear rolled from my eye and it was then I realized that one tear says everything. That one tear had so much sorrow, so much agony that it only took one to express it all. Why is it that you make me cry? I know you don't know what happens when you can't see me, but I don't want you to think that you are doing something that makes me unhappy. I would rather see you happy with someone else rather then miserable with the one who makes you that way. For I can only cry one tear because my heart just split in two and there is nothing that can mend the pieces. Pathetic as it sounds, but I do cry for you only because I wish you were saying I love you to me instead of the one that made you cry before. I wish that for one day I can dry that tear and be happy like I was before when I was holding you at night and whispering I love you into your ear while you were sleeping into the night. I asked myself sometimes, whether or not you heard me at night, and when I fell asleep I would dream that you would do the same. I remember the night you showed up on my front step and I wrapped you in my arms and hugged you until you finally couldn't take the cold anymore. I remember when I took your hand in mine and it was so cold, but I didn't care because I was theone keeping it warm. Now things have changed and I am here alone wondering why you walked out of my life with someone who can only tell you lies to keep you around. I know they lie to you because there is no one out there who can feel the way I do. You are an angel, but it takes the right person to see the wings and you let me see your wings. You played my heart and I needed nothing more then to hear your voice to make everything wrong in my life right again. I know loving you was going to lead me to a slow painful death, but why did you have to do it so early in my life? I longed each day just to look into your eyes and I needed nothing else to live for. I had everything anyone could ask for, but still you chose to walk out into the cold. Now the nights are freezing and the frost cakes to the windows. I have nothing to show for myself, but the blood that pours from my heart on to the floor. For you have split my heart into a thousand pieces and there is only one way to put them all back together and that is if you were to come home to me. I know you won't, but I guess the only thing I have is hope, and even that is wearing very thin. I have cursed the heavens and I have cursed the stars because I have lost the one thing in my life that made me smile, that made me laugh, that made me who I am today. And now that I have written such words I now fall to the floor hoping that I will not be alive to see the sun tomorrow morning.
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